Tuesday, March 12, 2013

The toughest post I may ever write........

I've been kind of quiet for the last week on here.......but tonight I feel the need to spill out all my overflowing emotions.

My heart has a huge hole in it.

Today I said my goodbyes to my best friend for the last 20 years.....way more of my life I have known with Mikey, then without. Not quite sure where to go from here. He's always been here, always been there for me, always been a part of my life.

So how do you say goodbye to a friend like that: hugs, kisses, scratches, kind words of thanks and love, all his favorite treats. And tears, lots of tears.

I had been afraid of this day for so many years....the day I had to make the decision it was time for Mikey to go. Turns out I shouldn't have been afraid; it was a bittersweet blessing that I will always cherish. I got to say my goodbyes, I got to make sure his last moments were the best they could possibly be. Not everyone gets that opportunity. 

So here's to you buhba boy: You were the most amazing pony a girl could ever ask for. A once in a lifetime friend, opportunity, first love, teacher. There will never be another you. And all that you leave me with, makes me who I am today. You tested me, pushed me to my limits and built my patience with your stubborn spirit. You taught me to be the most amazing rider, I wouldn't have learned an ounce of my "stick um'" seat with out you. You thoroughly reminded me when I messed up, another horse will never put me in the dirt as much as you did. You were always there for me, with a soft nuzzle and hug, and sweet listening ears, you brought me through more issues with your pony responses then any person ever will.

Thank You! 

I will always have the memories, so many memories, most all of childhood memories have you in them. Most of my favorite memories have you in them. But right now, I feel a heavy weight with your absence.....

My heart will always have Mikey in it.



  1. My heart goes out to you Darleen. But what a wonderful gift your memories of Mikey are. He will always be alive in your heart.

  2. Your words almost brought tears to my eyes, it's clear how much you loved him! Hang in there! He sounds like a wonderful animal, and I'm sure he loved you as well.

  3. I am so very sorry for your loss. {{Hugs}}

  4. Thank you for sharing this, while I am glad you got the opportunity to make his many years wonderful I wish these kinds of days never had to come. Looking forward to being able to give you a hug in person.

  5. Thank You all so much, your kind words are helping to heal the hole in my heart.