The toughest post I may ever write........

I've been kind of quiet for the last week on here.......but tonight I feel the need to spill out all my overflowing emotions.

My heart has a huge hole in it.

Today I said my goodbyes to my best friend for the last 20 years.....way more of my life I have known with Mikey, then without. Not quite sure where to go from here. He's always been here, always been there for me, always been a part of my life.

So how do you say goodbye to a friend like that: hugs, kisses, scratches, kind words of thanks and love, all his favorite treats. And tears, lots of tears.

I had been afraid of this day for so many years....the day I had to make the decision it was time for Mikey to go. Turns out I shouldn't have been afraid; it was a bittersweet blessing that I will always cherish. I got to say my goodbyes, I got to make sure his last moments were the best they could possibly be. Not everyone gets that opportunity. 

So here's to you buhba boy: You were the most amazing pony a girl could ever ask for. A once in a lifetime friend, opportunity, first love, teacher. There will never be another you. And all that you leave me with, makes me who I am today. You tested me, pushed me to my limits and built my patience with your stubborn spirit. You taught me to be the most amazing rider, I wouldn't have learned an ounce of my "stick um'" seat with out you. You thoroughly reminded me when I messed up, another horse will never put me in the dirt as much as you did. You were always there for me, with a soft nuzzle and hug, and sweet listening ears, you brought me through more issues with your pony responses then any person ever will.

Thank You! 

I will always have the memories, so many memories, most all of childhood memories have you in them. Most of my favorite memories have you in them. But right now, I feel a heavy weight with your absence.....

My heart will always have Mikey in it.